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[Spock gasped into consciousness and trembled at the biting cold. It took him a moment to realize that he was no longer on a metal, unforgiving examination table... but instead laying down in what felt like... snow. Fascinating.

His senses were completely off. The current date and time eluded him due to the number of occasions he had overcome to unconsciousness in the Malnosso's care...

Normally mental orientation would not be a problem...

...However, his current state of blindness left much to be desired.

He slowly stood, categorizing his physical condition, and found that his body was not cooperating as it should... he had to lean against a tree to retain balance. He ached all over. The Malnosso appeared curious towards his Vulcan physiology.... and went to great lengths to discover what they could. Spock shivered again as he recalled what they did to him. They had started with his fingers... running tests that involved pain tolerance and sense range.

They left the brain for last. Spock was successful in keeping them out of his Katra, a mental landscape containing his links...protecting what stability and bonds that he had left after his planet's devastation. However, it was his efforts in the end that now left him blind. In their enthusiasm, the Malnosso did not realize the extent of Vulcan stubbornness, so when threatening him with his eyesight did not work... they soon lost interest.

That left him in his current state.

Concentration was... difficult at the moment. There was too much pain. His Katra called out in an attempt to help him, but he did not know how successful that was. In the interim, Spock assumed that he was back in Luceti and started to walk forward... sensing the trees around him to use them for support.
He hoped someone would find him soon... He was without his uniform, and left once again in only a pair of pants. This cold was quickly becoming too much for his Vulcan biology to withstand.]

[Feel free to meet Spock wandering, blind, and cold. He's out in the woods currently, but he'll eventually make it somewhere near the village. Enjoy~]

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Yeah, seems that way.

_{[There it was again, calling him Jim. He shifted to just let the other lean against him, reaching back into the pack to pull out the bottle of water.]}

How are you feeling? Okay enough to drink something before we get up and head down?

Water would be much appreciated... [Spock presents a hand, believing his captain to place the bottle there...]

_{[He cracked it open and set it into the other's hand, hoping the other was not to badly hurt. But after what they had done to him, well...]}

How bad are you hurt, Spock? Can you walk?

[Spock takes a long drink... grateful for the liquid that he had been deprived with.]

I will... require some assistance getting home C-captain. I have suffered nerve damage during the... experimentation. They have...regretfully left me blind Jim....

[His eyes are searching for Jim's face... as illogical as it was. However, being in his Captain's presence... his T'hy'la's presence, was infinitely better than where he was.
He knew he was safe here...]

_{[Kirk stills at that, not sure how to take the news, and at first not wanting to believe it. Blind? What the hell? He almost wanted to wave his hand in front of the other's eyes, but Spock wouldn't lie about that. ]}

Right, that's... that's okay. Right. Well, let me know when you want to get up and we'll start down, but we should do it soon before it gets any colder.

[Spock tilts his head at the odd choice of words...
Regardless, Spock starts to get up, signifying his readiness to leave at that point.]

_{[Kirk stows the water bottle, getting the pack on and then hooks Spock's arm around his shoulders, his other arm sliding around his waist.]}

Okay, we'll go slow. It's downhill the entire way, but it's gentle. So one foot in front of the other.

_{[sighing, he started them on down, squeezing his hip.]}

You're gonna be okay, Spock.

[Spock nearly said "I already am..." before he stopped himself... this was getting precarious.
No matter.

Spock leaned into the solid form beside him, feeling the heat emanating from Jim in waves.]

I thank thee... Captain. [Spock is pliant, allowing himself to be lead down the snowy hill.]

How long...have I been gone?

A few weeks.

_{[He didn't want to say how those nights had been hard, knowing that the Vulcan wasn't in the next bedroom over, knowing he was undergoing who knew what. And now he did know and he wanted nothing more than to grab a Molly and snap their neck. Yeah, yeah, it was against regulations, killing people, but they deserved it! Screw not biting the hand that fed, he was going to tear that hand to ribbons!

He got control of himself and sighed, continuing down.]}

Watch out here, there's some rocks, but they're not big.

[Spock shuddered at the intensity of Jim's feelings of hatred...]

You are distressed...my apologies for leaving you so suddenly. How have you fared? [Spock maneuvered around the rocks with his Captain's help...]

Yeah, of course I'm distressed. Weren't you distressed when I came back?

_{[They got through the rocks and the going was smoother from there, Kirk picking up the pace a little bit, but not much.]}

And I've been... I've been fine. Just getting through things here, you know how it is. I've been trying to make contact with that healing spirit - Nala, or something like that.

[Spock makes a choked sound...] Of course Captain.

[That piece of information got Spock's attention.] Indeed? W-what has b-been your level of success?

Marginal and slow, but it's something at least.

_{[They finally get to flat ground and he can straighten them some.]}

We're almost home, Spock.

Indeed? If you need any help... when I am well... I would be amenable to doing so. I have been able to contact the fire spirit to some degree... though my level of concentration at the moment does not allow for its use...

[Spock leans a little more onto his Captain... relief seeping into his voice...]

That..that is well Jim...

You know, we really need to talk about the amount of things you seem to keep forgetting to tell me. And believe me, I know of quite a few, so we're having a conversation.

_{[He squeezed his hip and got them to their building and finally to their apartment. He got them inside and took Spock right to the bathroom.]}

Come on, we need to warm you up, I think. How's a shower sound? Or a bath, since I think standing might be beyond you.

[Spock quirks an eyebrow... but does not respond... there will be plenty of time for conversation.

However... Vulcan's are not huge fans of water...]

I would prefer to get quickly clean in the shower Captain... and leave getting warmth to the blankets...
Will you turn on the water? I believe I can handle it from here... [...or so he thinks...]

_{[He gave him a dubious look, but he nods and turns on the water and stands.]}

I'll go get some blankets, and then I'll be outside the door if you need me, okay?

[Spock nods and waits for Jim to leave the bathroom...

He is slow, but he manages to clean up... however, when the water is turned off he starts to feel around the bathroom...

He does manage to find a towel though.]

C-captain? Can you help me to my room? [Spock hated being vulnerable like this... however, it will all be better once he had rested...]

_{[Kirk had been standing outside the door, waiting nervously, listening. He felt he should be in there helping, but it would have been awkward, and Spock... Spock wouldn't have liked it.

God, the other was blind. Blind.

Not that that made him a cripple, but Jesus, it wasn't like he'd been born blind...

When Spock called he opened the door and padded in, taking his elbow gently.]}

Yeah, come on. I put out some clothes on your bed too. Do you want me to burn the ones you came in or attempt to wash them?

You may.... dispose of those clothes. [Spock could not hide the disdain that he had for the memories that the clothing held.

There was no use trying to save them.

Spock allowed himself to be lead to his room... he stepped confidently away from his Captain.... only to trip and fall flat on his face from the bed corner....]

Jeez.

_{[He sighed and came over, like it was a big deal, when honestly he was very worried. He got the other under his warms and helped him up, putting the Vulcan against the side of the bed at least, near the clothing he had laid out.]}

Look, go ahead and dress and then just... stand there till I get back. I don't need you bleeding out.

[Spock, in his vulnerability, shied away from his Captain after he was helped onto the bed...]

My thanks Captain... I will await your return. [Spock waited until Jim left.. felt for the clothes, and quickly changed.

He was a burden.

This would not do...]

_{[Kirk waits a moment to assure himself the other wouldn't fall and crack his head open. Once that was done, he took the clothes, bundling them up, and did indeed go to their fire place, tossing them in and watching them burn.

Licking his lips he went to the kitchen and got out a glass, filling it with juice, and brought it back into the bedroom.]}

Here, I brought you some juice, to make you feel better.

[Spock had changed and was sitting up in bed, under the covers.

His head turned in the direction of the voice, however, he was not able to react accordingly to the beverage offer....

Spock lifted his hand...]

My thanks Captain... you will have to place it in my hand..... [Spock... really disliked being vulnerable...]

Yeah, I'm coming.

_{[He came over, pressing the glass into said hand, and fairly sure the other could figure what to do with it from there. Still, he staid by his side, taking a seat on the edge of the bed and, out of nervousness he supposed, smoothing out the covers Spock had pulled around himself, tucking them gently.]}

You're sure you don't need me to get Adele or someone? I mean, I don't think they can fix your eyes, but the rest of you...

Personal Log #5 - Action

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Is he still blind during Loki's party?

Yup, and until after New Years~ XD

Okee-dokee ~

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