[ God, this was... This was hard. It was hard to tell himself no, that
this was a bad idea. It was hard to forget how it had felt to kiss him,
hard to forget that Spock knew him the best of anybody. That's what people
wanted in their mates, right? It's what he wanted too, wasn't it?
It was hard to remind himself that they might forget if they got sent back
home. Hard to remind himself of the pain he'd caused Spock in his bad
decisions. How could Spock even want him that way? Why would he? He asked
himself that a lot, when he was being serious. ]
Re: 14th-Evening
And do I get a translation of that?
[ God, this was... This was hard. It was hard to tell himself no, that this was a bad idea. It was hard to forget how it had felt to kiss him, hard to forget that Spock knew him the best of anybody. That's what people wanted in their mates, right? It's what he wanted too, wasn't it?
It was hard to remind himself that they might forget if they got sent back home. Hard to remind himself of the pain he'd caused Spock in his bad decisions. How could Spock even want him that way? Why would he? He asked himself that a lot, when he was being serious. ]
What does it mean, Spock?