How to explain it though? He kind of understood it himself and he kind of
didn't. But the heart was funny that way, wasn't it? And it was the heart,
he'd known that for a long time, he just didn't want to admit it because...
a lot of things.
He sighed, looking towards the super nova that was pike, and again the
reasons hit home, the reasons he knew and had batted away and kept buried
because it was easier to live in his self-imposed exile than it was to
accept his feelings or analyze them or deal with them.
"It means I really care about you, idiot," he said softly, licking his
lips. "I really, really care about you and that scares the ever living shit
out of me."
He shuddered, wrapping his arms around himself, turning away from the nova
and the things it represented, his eyes flicking to the glimmering, pale
jewel of a star that could barely be made out that he knew deep in his soul
to be his mother.
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How to explain it though? He kind of understood it himself and he kind of didn't. But the heart was funny that way, wasn't it? And it was the heart, he'd known that for a long time, he just didn't want to admit it because... a lot of things.
He sighed, looking towards the super nova that was pike, and again the reasons hit home, the reasons he knew and had batted away and kept buried because it was easier to live in his self-imposed exile than it was to accept his feelings or analyze them or deal with them.
"It means I really care about you, idiot," he said softly, licking his lips. "I really, really care about you and that scares the ever living shit out of me."
He shuddered, wrapping his arms around himself, turning away from the nova and the things it represented, his eyes flicking to the glimmering, pale jewel of a star that could barely be made out that he knew deep in his soul to be his mother.