spohkh | Personal Log #11 - Dazed and Confused [Voice/Action]

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Personal Log #11 - Dazed and Confused [Voice/Action]

[Spock opened his eyes and held in the groan at the familiar sight of Luceti's forest. It took a moment for the Vulcan to organize his thoughts and realize what had happened...

Ah yes... He had been kidnapped once again.

Spock sat up, wary of the lingering effects from his visit with the Malnosso... and looked around for his Journal. Predictably it was laying innocently by his side... illogically he had hoped that it might have been lost. No matter.
Spock reached for it and stopped... realizing that something was wrong with his hand. It was... frozen. His long fingers stuck together, hand in the shape of a loose fist and refusing to move. The Vulcan's eyes widened in surprise as he checked his other hand, finding the exact same thing. What was he going to do? He could barely pick up the journal let alone use it properly.

The Vulcan fumbled with the journal, finally getting it to flop open on in his lap... ]

Greetings. I have been returned from my... visit... with the Malnosso. I require assistance. Is anyone there?

[Action]: Spock can be found in the woods without the use of his hands. He's going to need a lot of help, and Spock's not going to like it.
You can also catch him walking towards his place with his journal held awkwardly between his fists. Approach him if you dare.]

[OOC: When I originally went on Hiatus, I said that Spock was going to be on autopilot, however, I've needed to be away longer than originally planned. It was advised to me that I have Spock mallynapped to excuse him from not knowing everything that's gone down. Apparently I've missed wings... this upsets me greatly. XD]

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[Of course Eley remembers that unfortunate accident. He might have expressed his guilt at messing things up again if Spock hadn't already used that phrase... Yes, they were past that. And really, knowing that he hadn't done anything to make his friend feel ill at ease was a great relief.

He gives a nod.]

I am glad to hear it. Given time... I am also finding myself becoming more comfortable with certain individuals. I would not say that you were an exception.

Still, I should hope that I will not force us into that situation again in future. It should be your choice.

[Spock seemed to make a 'shrugging' motion...blushing once more.]

Perhaps...
Though I find it highly unlikely. Humans are so... physically affectionate, I believe this is something that will take quite some time to get used to.
However, you seem to be more...
...confident then last we met. Did something transpire while I was away?

Confident?

[He hadn't really thought about it before. Thinking back to what had happened the past few months, there wasn't anything particularly life-changing that had happened that he could recall. Though he did notice a more positive trend when it came to interacting with others...]

I suppose I have simply taken the advice of my friends. Tsuzuki made me realise that I do wish to become more involved here and I have been trying to gain new skills while I learn alongside others. I have made friends and... I trust them, something which I have not given much of back on Aether. I have even had a tree planted in my name, something which has given me a new sense of purpose in Luceti. It is mine to protect and nurture.

I do not want to sit by and do nothing any longer. I have free will as much as any human.

[Spock regarded Eleytheria with a small half-smile. Here was a being, a god that was very far removed from human social behaviour...

....and it was an honour to see him flourish and grow comfortable with himself and those around him. Spock found that he was...
..proud of Eleytheria.]

That is most agreeable Eleytheria... to borrow a human phrase, 'you have come a long way' since we first met.
May I inquire as to the tree? Why was it planted for you?

[The Spirit was obviously in a good mood as he shared a slight smile himself this time. It was something he still hadn't done very often... but lately he had found it happening without him really noticing. He was becoming increasingly... content, here in Luceti.]

I had been toying with the idea of having my birthday on the day of the Wind Festival, as we discussed. I spoke with Helios about this and about what it might involve. On Agkelos, the people planted a kind of willow tree for me and the festival was held whenever the blooms showed themselves and began to glow. This is the tree upon which they would hang wishes and prayers, waiting for me to answer.

[He pauses, letting Spock take that all in.]

Helios located the seed of a willow tree here in Luceti and enchanted it with magic. Once it has grown and the flowers have bloomed, they should glow just as they did back on Agkelos.

[Spock places a gentle hand on Eley's shoulder.]

I am...pleased... that you have found a home here.
[Spock removes his hand after a beat... No touchy and all that.
The Vulcan continues to walk...]

Do you have a desire to leave Luceti?
[Spock wants to know if Eley is in the group that finds Luceti the better alternative to their actual home.]

... [It was a good question and one he hadn't been asked before. Now, Eley has cause to think about it. He doesn't seem quite certain on the answer, given his hesitation.]

Yes... and no. Aether is my home and I cannot shake the feeling of responsibility I have to take care of it. While many do not believe in Spirits anymore, I also feel a need to be there for those that do. There are also a few humans that I am fond of at home.

Yet, I also feel that I would not be unhappy here providing I can live like this alongside my friends. It is an almost... frustrating situation to be in.

[Spock nods...]

Of course... one can only be content where they belong. My place is on the Enterprise, and I recognize that I will only be comfortable there.

However, I must admit that I do not want to forget my time spent here. I believe that I have improved in human relations.

To be forgotten is a truly painful experience... I hope that someday we may yet find a way to keep the memories of those who have left Luceti intact. Since I have progressed a great deal during my stay here, it would seem a shame to return home and continue with a complete lack of understanding once again...

[He tries not to dwell on these things too much but they do bother him. He also fears that that lack of understanding may lead to more tragedies that he would live to regret.

Well, let's try to change the subject.]

Tell me more about this 'Enterprise' of yours. Why do you feel that you belong there?

To be forgotten is in itself...death.

[Spock goes quiet for a moment... obvious he's talking about something else now.]

The Enterprise is.. my home. More so than Vulcan or Earth ever was. It is a place where I am...

...whole.

[That silence doesn't go unnoticed and as much as Eley is curious about what it means, he's not sure he should go prying. He almost asks... but seems to stop himself. Sometimes it was best not to ask questions... coming from him, it was a sign of respect, something he would do for those who respect him in the same way.

It is the same for me back in Aether, despite my problems with its people. Then again, I am... a part of it. Made from the same essence it was born from in the beginning. I suppose it is not much of a surprise in that case.

...you mention Earth. What is the Earth you know like?

[Spock was silent while he considered Eley's question.]

Earth... was the birthplace of my mother. A foreign country where I was perceived as an alien...
...'too different'.
[Which was a fascinating feeling considering that on Vulcan he was also 'too different'.

Spock had no home...until the Enterprise.]

I was once called a 'child of two worlds'... and yet not accepted by either. It was only the Enterprise and Captain Kirk who had accepted me for who I was.
My apologies Eleytheria... I have become rather emotional today.

[Eley shakes his head at those words though.]

You have no need to apologise for emotions. You are supposed to be trying not to hide things, yes? You know I will listen... I have already listened for thousands of years in Aether.

I am aware of frictions between races on my own planet. Whether on different continents or different worlds, I am sure it must be a very... lonely feeling.

[He pauses as if debating whether or not to say something... but goes ahead.]

I have found myself experiencing feelings of loneliness even in Luceti, since I no longer feel quite like a Spirit, nor do I feel quite human.

Acceptance...
[Spock seemed to muse for a moment.]
I had thought the concept such a human frailty... however I was very wrong. I can admit that now.

Instead we must learn balance, yes? [Spock regards the Spirit.]

I believe having a... friend maximizes the likelihood of success.

[Eley gives a nod at that. He had been told time and time again that he shouldn't try to be one or the other. He should try to embrace both sides, as confusing and frustrating as it could be sometimes.]

I believe you are right... particularly about friends. Without them, I would not be as I am now. Perhaps it scares me at times to think that I may change from what I once was, but I hope that I will be able to hold onto these experiences and use them.

...thank you for being my friend, Spock.

[Spock regards Eley for a long moment....]

The feeling is mutual Eleytheria.

[They walk in silence for a long moment, getting closer to town.]
In the spirit of 'small talk'... may I inquire as to whether you have learned anything 'exciting' while I was away?
[Spock looks far too amused.]

Exciting? I suppose that would depend on how you would define... 'exciting'.

[He thinks a moment, trying to pinpoint something worth mentioning.]

Well, I attended a Cultural Fair which contained many things from other worlds. I attempted to make my own display as well... it gathered much more interest than I was expecting, and I had the opportunity to share information about my world with others.

There was also the speed dating event where I learned about... the intimacies between male humans.

[Is the only way he can think to put it whilst trying to avoid too much embarrassment, ahem.]

[Spock's eyebrows twitch as he looks sharply at Eley...]

I beg your pardon?

Ah...

[Well, this was awkward. Eley was fast learning that certain subjects were not often shared between people so openly. Then how exactly could he explain further?

He... might be blushing right now.]

One of the people I spoke with seemed rather interested in... 'lying' with me. I had thought the act to be simply for reproduction but it seems I was wrong. And that... males and females are not the only ones to participate in this.

[Spock slows down....and gives Eley a 'look'.]

While it is not uncommon for any variation of gender to engage in a physical relationship, I am more concerned that an individual here propositioned you.
[A dark look crossed over Spock's face.]

Who was it?

[Ffff, don't look at him like that Spock. Was it really that bad?]

I believe his name was Isaac. However he was not forceful about it. In fact, despite his apparent amusement at my lack of knowledge, he seemed quite willing to explain to me in detail what this might involve. I am not quite sure what to make of him at this point... I was not certain whether or not to trust his words either. But it seems he was not lying to me if what you say is true.

I am certain that he would be nothing other than eager to share as much information as he had at his disposal.
[Of course it was Isaac... the Vulcan should have guessed. Him and Spock had had a rough time of it since the beginning.... and now it was only worse.
He was going to make a point of approaching the red headed man sometime soon.]

I am also certain that he had no reason to lie... though it is in the delivery that has me most worried.

[Have a brooding Vulcan... He's trying so hard for you not to notice.]

[...but he is certainly noticing that something seems amiss here. It was true that Eley had found Isaac rather irritating at times himself and had not been particularly happy at how amusing he seemed to find the Spirit's lack of knowledge. But was the subject itself really so bad? Being so inexperienced, Eley could only accept it as an expansion of his knowledge, there was no good or bad about it...]

Am I right to assume you have met him before? What exactly is... wrong with the delivery as you put it?

Indeed, he is an acquaintance of mine.
[Not necessarily a positive acquaintance, but he'll leave that up to Eley's imagination.]

He is rather blunt and manipulative. His information, while accurate, lacks tact...
Also, I find myself concerned that he may attempt to take advantage of you due to your level of innocence on the matter.

Manipulative?

[Hmm... perhaps he should be more careful in that case. Though despite his crude behaviour and strange personality, Eley didn't feel all that threatened by him. Not yet anyway.]

He did not seem to be attempting to force me into it, though I did not say 'no' outright either. Still, he does not appear to be pursuing me. I believe he would rather wait for me to make a move if I wished it.

...but I could be wrong, of course. I will be careful.

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