spohkh | Personal Log #11 - Dazed and Confused [Voice/Action]

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Personal Log #11 - Dazed and Confused [Voice/Action]

[Spock opened his eyes and held in the groan at the familiar sight of Luceti's forest. It took a moment for the Vulcan to organize his thoughts and realize what had happened...

Ah yes... He had been kidnapped once again.

Spock sat up, wary of the lingering effects from his visit with the Malnosso... and looked around for his Journal. Predictably it was laying innocently by his side... illogically he had hoped that it might have been lost. No matter.
Spock reached for it and stopped... realizing that something was wrong with his hand. It was... frozen. His long fingers stuck together, hand in the shape of a loose fist and refusing to move. The Vulcan's eyes widened in surprise as he checked his other hand, finding the exact same thing. What was he going to do? He could barely pick up the journal let alone use it properly.

The Vulcan fumbled with the journal, finally getting it to flop open on in his lap... ]

Greetings. I have been returned from my... visit... with the Malnosso. I require assistance. Is anyone there?

[Action]: Spock can be found in the woods without the use of his hands. He's going to need a lot of help, and Spock's not going to like it.
You can also catch him walking towards his place with his journal held awkwardly between his fists. Approach him if you dare.]

[OOC: When I originally went on Hiatus, I said that Spock was going to be on autopilot, however, I've needed to be away longer than originally planned. It was advised to me that I have Spock mallynapped to excuse him from not knowing everything that's gone down. Apparently I've missed wings... this upsets me greatly. XD]

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[Spock looks up at Eley... then stands, very much lacking in his usual grace.]

Yes... I would very much appreciate that.
[Spock looks down at the journal... and almost sighs. Something so simple, and yet, he couldn't even pick it up.]

How are you Eleytheria? [He looked at his friend curiously... ]

[Eley takes the journal for him, noting that sigh. He understands just how frustrating this must be for him... but for however long it lasts he would do what he could to help.

He starts to walk as they carry on their conversation.]

I have been well... for the most part. [There was slight hesitation there because certain things did still play on his mind from time to time.] But I have been constantly learning new things during your absence and attempting to talk to new people in the process. I even attended a 'speed dating' event though it was against my will... and I am not entirely sure if it was successful or not.

[Spock walked amicably beside Eleytheria...
The Vulcan lifted an eyebrow.]

Speed dating? What is that exactly?

[The Vulcan had never heard of such a concept... perhaps there were some things that the god and Vulcan didn't understand about human rituals...]

[Oh dear... how was he going to explain this? He barely understood it himself. Well, all he could do was explain what happened in that case.]

We were allocated a list of participants upon arrival and had five minutes to sit and talk with each individual before moving to the next one. By the end of it we were supposed to have an idea of who we might wish to meet again in future.

Ah... but I know little about dating in the first place so I am afraid I cannot be much help in that regard. Tsuzuki showed me something about... holding hands while on a date.

Illogical... How can one expect to gain any sort of valuable information let alone determine a worthy mate in such a limited time frame...

[Spock quirked an eyebrow... his impatience for humans showing... but then he blushed at Eley's next remark.]

Holding hands? This... is part of human courtship?

[Eley gives a nod at that.] I agree. I suppose I did gain a first impression of the people I met but... I would not be able to determine exactly what they are like until I spend more time with them. Something which could have done regardless of there being an event or not.

...not that I was looking for a romantic interest myself, despite being signed up for it by someone unknown to me. [Welp now he's blushing too, way to go Eley.]

Mmm, apparently. I am not sure if it is more significant when sitting opposite someone or not. Perhaps the setting alters the mood.

[Spock considers Eley's words...]

Touching or holding hands has much more cultural significance for Vulcans than it does for humans...

[Again, the blush on his face deepens.]

[Judging by the look on his friend's face, Eley couldn't help but wonder if there was something a bit more... intimate behind the meaning for Vulcans. Naturally he wasn't going to just let this conversation end here.]

Can you explain? What exactly does it mean for Vulcans?

[Spock hesitates...
This is information that isn't discussed with non-Vulcans... but... Eleytheria is a friend.]

Vulcans are touch telepaths, thus making the fingers rather... sensitive. For example...
...Vulcans kiss with their fingers.

[Ah, of course. Just hearing that word causes Eley to blush again and he places a hand on his head, feeling the warmth there. Why did this reaction happen every time he talked about things like this with someone? Surely it was just a natural process, there shouldn't be anything embarrassing about it.]

I can... see how that would make things uncomfortable when it comes to holding hands with another.

[He felt strange enough doing it from a human perspective, and after learning about kissing with the lips the Spirit could somewhat understand the importance of such a gesture.]

Well, at least knowing that, I will be able to avoid it in the future. I do not wish to cause you discomfort if I can help it.

[Spock's blush went away as he gave Eley a small smile.]

I believe that the human phrase is 'we are past that'... Did you not forget that we were connected by the hands for quite some time? The Discomfort comes from excessive touching with a person I am not familiar or comfortable with in the first place...
...you belong to neither of those categories.

As they say, do not worry.

[Indeed, Eley and Spock had been through a lot... and he was far from uncomfortable around the god.]

[Of course Eley remembers that unfortunate accident. He might have expressed his guilt at messing things up again if Spock hadn't already used that phrase... Yes, they were past that. And really, knowing that he hadn't done anything to make his friend feel ill at ease was a great relief.

He gives a nod.]

I am glad to hear it. Given time... I am also finding myself becoming more comfortable with certain individuals. I would not say that you were an exception.

Still, I should hope that I will not force us into that situation again in future. It should be your choice.

[Spock seemed to make a 'shrugging' motion...blushing once more.]

Perhaps...
Though I find it highly unlikely. Humans are so... physically affectionate, I believe this is something that will take quite some time to get used to.
However, you seem to be more...
...confident then last we met. Did something transpire while I was away?

Confident?

[He hadn't really thought about it before. Thinking back to what had happened the past few months, there wasn't anything particularly life-changing that had happened that he could recall. Though he did notice a more positive trend when it came to interacting with others...]

I suppose I have simply taken the advice of my friends. Tsuzuki made me realise that I do wish to become more involved here and I have been trying to gain new skills while I learn alongside others. I have made friends and... I trust them, something which I have not given much of back on Aether. I have even had a tree planted in my name, something which has given me a new sense of purpose in Luceti. It is mine to protect and nurture.

I do not want to sit by and do nothing any longer. I have free will as much as any human.

[Spock regarded Eleytheria with a small half-smile. Here was a being, a god that was very far removed from human social behaviour...

....and it was an honour to see him flourish and grow comfortable with himself and those around him. Spock found that he was...
..proud of Eleytheria.]

That is most agreeable Eleytheria... to borrow a human phrase, 'you have come a long way' since we first met.
May I inquire as to the tree? Why was it planted for you?

[The Spirit was obviously in a good mood as he shared a slight smile himself this time. It was something he still hadn't done very often... but lately he had found it happening without him really noticing. He was becoming increasingly... content, here in Luceti.]

I had been toying with the idea of having my birthday on the day of the Wind Festival, as we discussed. I spoke with Helios about this and about what it might involve. On Agkelos, the people planted a kind of willow tree for me and the festival was held whenever the blooms showed themselves and began to glow. This is the tree upon which they would hang wishes and prayers, waiting for me to answer.

[He pauses, letting Spock take that all in.]

Helios located the seed of a willow tree here in Luceti and enchanted it with magic. Once it has grown and the flowers have bloomed, they should glow just as they did back on Agkelos.

[Spock places a gentle hand on Eley's shoulder.]

I am...pleased... that you have found a home here.
[Spock removes his hand after a beat... No touchy and all that.
The Vulcan continues to walk...]

Do you have a desire to leave Luceti?
[Spock wants to know if Eley is in the group that finds Luceti the better alternative to their actual home.]

... [It was a good question and one he hadn't been asked before. Now, Eley has cause to think about it. He doesn't seem quite certain on the answer, given his hesitation.]

Yes... and no. Aether is my home and I cannot shake the feeling of responsibility I have to take care of it. While many do not believe in Spirits anymore, I also feel a need to be there for those that do. There are also a few humans that I am fond of at home.

Yet, I also feel that I would not be unhappy here providing I can live like this alongside my friends. It is an almost... frustrating situation to be in.

[Spock nods...]

Of course... one can only be content where they belong. My place is on the Enterprise, and I recognize that I will only be comfortable there.

However, I must admit that I do not want to forget my time spent here. I believe that I have improved in human relations.

To be forgotten is a truly painful experience... I hope that someday we may yet find a way to keep the memories of those who have left Luceti intact. Since I have progressed a great deal during my stay here, it would seem a shame to return home and continue with a complete lack of understanding once again...

[He tries not to dwell on these things too much but they do bother him. He also fears that that lack of understanding may lead to more tragedies that he would live to regret.

Well, let's try to change the subject.]

Tell me more about this 'Enterprise' of yours. Why do you feel that you belong there?

To be forgotten is in itself...death.

[Spock goes quiet for a moment... obvious he's talking about something else now.]

The Enterprise is.. my home. More so than Vulcan or Earth ever was. It is a place where I am...

...whole.

[That silence doesn't go unnoticed and as much as Eley is curious about what it means, he's not sure he should go prying. He almost asks... but seems to stop himself. Sometimes it was best not to ask questions... coming from him, it was a sign of respect, something he would do for those who respect him in the same way.

It is the same for me back in Aether, despite my problems with its people. Then again, I am... a part of it. Made from the same essence it was born from in the beginning. I suppose it is not much of a surprise in that case.

...you mention Earth. What is the Earth you know like?

[Spock was silent while he considered Eley's question.]

Earth... was the birthplace of my mother. A foreign country where I was perceived as an alien...
...'too different'.
[Which was a fascinating feeling considering that on Vulcan he was also 'too different'.

Spock had no home...until the Enterprise.]

I was once called a 'child of two worlds'... and yet not accepted by either. It was only the Enterprise and Captain Kirk who had accepted me for who I was.
My apologies Eleytheria... I have become rather emotional today.

[Eley shakes his head at those words though.]

You have no need to apologise for emotions. You are supposed to be trying not to hide things, yes? You know I will listen... I have already listened for thousands of years in Aether.

I am aware of frictions between races on my own planet. Whether on different continents or different worlds, I am sure it must be a very... lonely feeling.

[He pauses as if debating whether or not to say something... but goes ahead.]

I have found myself experiencing feelings of loneliness even in Luceti, since I no longer feel quite like a Spirit, nor do I feel quite human.

Acceptance...
[Spock seemed to muse for a moment.]
I had thought the concept such a human frailty... however I was very wrong. I can admit that now.

Instead we must learn balance, yes? [Spock regards the Spirit.]

I believe having a... friend maximizes the likelihood of success.

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