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[Spock sits up and looks at Lupin, waving off his concern.]

Just a minor complication, but nothing that needs to be done right away.

[Spock gets up and looks at the tea tray, wondering if another pot of tea can be made.]

Minor, huh?

[A part of him didn't believe it.

He saw that curious gaze and went to set another kettle of water simmering. It's always possible to make more tea.]

[Spock leveled Lupin with a look...]

Indeed.

[Spock saw what Arsene was up to and figured they would have tea relatively soon and went to stand by the window....looking out.

There was still a lot of work to do, but his mind was starting to repair and he was regaining control once more. He was free to think of other things... and there was work to do.
However, he was content to rest for the time being and enjoy his time with Lupin. He realized that this situation was asking a lot of Lupin... And asking Lupin to be honest and confide in him was rather much. Hopefully with time... well, either way, he owed this man much.

Spock thought back to the meditation session... the desert garden. At the time he questioned the logic by creating that image to reflect the bonds his mind contained...
But he remembered his mother's garden and how she tended to it dutifully everyday... and the peaceful times he had helped her.]

Hmm~

[It was a thoughtful hum, given as he spooned out the appropriate amount of tea leaves into the serving pot and started warming their cups. He was feeling calmer himself, and was content to just enjoy the relaxation while they could. Odds were high that they wouldn't get another chance for a long while.

Once the tea was ready and served he joined Spock at the window. The man's reverie was noted when he passed a cup off.]

Thinking anything special?

[Spock gives Lupin an amused look...]

I was thinking about the garden my mother used to keep. It was there that I found the inspiration for the projection...

I see...

[He trailed, taking a sip of his tea as he thought. Of course the garden was significant like that. It was a comfort, like how Spock slipped into his bed that one night to sleep. After what happened to his home, and the manner in which he grew up, Lupin couldn't fault him for such sentimentality.]

...thank you for showing all of that to me. It must have...been hard.

[Spock shakes his head, the grin still on his face...]

Think nothing of it sa-kai....

It was...difficult. But the bond made it easier to show you. [Spock still could not help but think he was taking advantage... but the closeness was something that he...

well...

That should pass soon.

Spock kept his hands behind his back, his 'Vulcan-ness' slowly settling in.]

Your actions have been admirable. I hope that you did not experience too much emotional transference...

[The distance was what he was more familiar with, more reminiscent to how Spock was when they met. Lupin nodded in acknowledgement and understanding, but all the while he had to admit to appreciating the strange friendship they were forming. A part of his mind still wavered on accepting it, but he was willing to try.

That was important, right?]

...I'm not trained for this sort of thing, you know. It's not something I've ever experienced before, but I've always been able to focus when under pressure.

That helped, but it was overwhelming at first.

[Spock tilted his head... ]

Any being has the capability of concentrated meditation. The advantage that is apparent for you is that you have access to ...me. I am willing to teach if you would like to learn.

I can attempt to teach you to focus while not under pressure.

[Spock's amusement is thoroughly apparent at this point...]

[Amusement was very good, in Lupin's opinion, but there were other problems.]

I've tried meditating. It kind of didn't work too well, remember?

[It had helped him 'hear' Kipinn well enough to notice air currents with little concentration, but he still could barely manipulate them.

[Spock tilts his head again, and in an almost taunting manner, reaches out to clap him gently on the back before replying...]

I have safely assumed that a personality like yours would require a great amount of focus for meditation.

[Teasing. That was teasing. Lupin snorted indignantly.]

Implying that I can't focus.

I implied no such thing sa-kai. If anything I recognized that you have a great deal of focus...

But I must admit to being curious at the 'selective' nature your focus has.

[Spock ducks his head...]

Can't sit still. I just get bored. Stealing things is a fun challenge, especially if you're particular in your targets and you like to stack extra handicaps on the job.

[Rattled off quickly. He didn't like explaining things that should be obvious.]

[Spock held up a hand to silence Lupin, a hint of a smile evident on his face.]

I realize why you have difficulty sa-kai, I was merely 'teasing' you. You do not need to change... it is part of your 'fascinating' personality. Perhaps it is my humour... it is something in which I need to work on.

[Spock leans back a bit...His Captain never seemed to understand his humour either... curious. Spock raises an eyebrow then moves away from the window towards the steeping tea.

How can he communicate to Arsene his worries regarding the link without coming across as...overbearing or overprotective...]

[Lupin followed--carefully. Humor was always his shield, his method of deflecting from a greater problem. That, rambling, and laughter were his primary tools for distracting someone from a topic that he didn't want to talk about.

He wouldn't press, but he was curious.]

Last night...that little plant...it got me wondering about what the future holds. I've never entered into a 'contract' of this kind before.

[Spock's fingers twitch in a nervous action...]

The future is entirely what you make of it... and I did not want to burden you with copious amounts of unnecessary information...

The bond will either strengthen or weaken depending on how much you put into it....
If you choose to make it stronger there may come a time when we can mentally communicate over long distances with barely any effort. A negative factory would be the emotional transference... you could occasionally pick up vague impressions of what I am feeling, and that also goes two ways. However, now that I am in better control, privacy will be upheld. That is... unless I have another episode, but that is highly unlikely.

[Spock hesitates once more... ]

It is a rather small concern and too soon to tell if it has any real relevance...

However I fear for your mental well being if I am suddenly pulled from this world. I am unsure if the bond with sever and recognize it as a loss. For you the repercussions could be severe because you are a psy-null being. The grief could be...overwhelming.

On the other hand... the bond could stay in place and it will always serve as a reminder, no matter the universal distance.

[Spock looks at Lupin, wondering how he is processing this information.]

[He returned that look with a thoughtful curiosity.]

I'm not afraid of a little pain, you know.

[Because he was the sort of man who didn't play 'nice' with others unless the others were willing to bend the rules. Even his current trials were something he could handle, even if they were rough.]

I...have actually been watching out for possible emotional transference all ready, because I wasn't certain. I didn't want my own problems affecting you while you were...recovering.

[He, in many ways, was recovering himself. Soon enough he would speak to the man in the tunnels and have his affliction removed...and then the show could finally go on.

Lupin sighed heavily. There were too many variables, too many factors in play, that he couldn't predict what even the next month would bring. Halloween always brought a Shift, he heard. Last winter there was a draft in the middle of a blizzard.

Above all, his own life needed to stabilize. He had plans, and he kept on pushing them back because of everything else. It was tiring. He was tired.]

...You know? We'll need to see how that goes. I admit, I'm curious to see what that would be like...but not right now. You wouldn't like being in my head too much right now.

Winter is coming, and several holidays with it. Let's hope that the Malnosso don't do anything to screw that up. And...maybe everyone will feel a little better after Christmas.

[Spock shakes his head with a smile and puts his hand on Lupin's shoulder...
Spock could tell that Lupin was tired...]

You continuously amaze me sa-kai.

Let us take advantage of the rest of the time we have here to 'relax'.

[Just mentally and emotionally at that point, but it was getting better. He hoped that the upswing would keep up--he was tired of being tired.

He returned that smile. Strange as it was to admit, he could get used to having sa-kai as a nickname. It was better than 'monkey', and more dignified than another affectionate nickname that he was starting to miss.]

I'm just being myself. You're the amazing one here.

[Because bearing that level of hardship and still maintaining basic sanity? Was impressive.]

But I agree. We've had too much heavy conversation for a lazy trip to the springs.

[Spock blushes green at the compliment but quickly regains composure.]

Indeed.

Shall we attempt to see how long we can stay in the hot spring before it is necessary to come out? [Spock was definitely teasing Lupin at this point.]

[Being challenged to an overheating contest by a Vulcan was too delightful to not take. Even dizzy as he was, even with the temperature and his own tension...

There was that old grin.]

Oh. You are on!

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fade-ith to black-ith? XD

sure~